Bali photo journal ( gourmet food edition)

A little information, we went to this fancy ass hotel and ultimately decided to splurge on some fancy ass hotel, hence all these sexy pics. ;)

we can't play on broken strings

So I'm full speed ahead with college and all that hoo ha. I'm already in my 3rd week (I think) and everything's still pretty alright (I hope).  Although I feel I'm pretty behind right now especially in calculus and vectors. Probably because my teacher's confusing the hell out of me but I just don't have the guts to admit it. But he says vectors itself is pretty confusing in itself so I guess it's okay.
   To be quite honest with you I'm not really looking forward to this semester since I already have good knowledge of all the heavy work and late nights I got myself into last semester. Furthermore, I have yet to start on any form of community service so I have a lot coming ahead. Oh I also have to take the Ontario Secondary School Literacy Test this March so......... (*proceeds to tear pieces of hair out). I mean there's an overwhelming amount of work coming and I feel extremely scared. My social science teacher told me this semester is going to be the shortest CPU sem on record and we're in shit loads of trouble because we have to get a master's degree size thesis done in about 5 months............................. Like shit man! Those things are suppose to be a one year thing, regardless if you have a partner or not.  So let me correct myself, college right now is NOT "pretty alright". It's very scary and stressful and I couldn't be more than happier that there's a long Chinese new year holiday starting from tomorrow. But at the same time I dread that there's such a long holiday because then I'll start slacking about and there won't be a lot of progress with my school work. I'm sure people are gonna say that I should try to organise my time and all but that's the thing.  I don't have the will power to do that!!! Ugh, lazy middle class student dilemma!!!! But seriously, even when I plan something there's always some mysterious surprise thing I have to do at the very last minute. I'm also not that good in prioritising.
    But ultimately I'm just scared that I won't be able to perform as well as I did last semester:

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I'm pretty proud of myself at doing incredibly well but now comes that fear of not being able to perform up to par as last semester. Especially since math ain't as easy as it was last semester. To be quite honest, the only thing I continuously had trouble with last semester was chemistry...... I know it seems slightly ridiculous for worrying about everything while only at the third week of school but with graduation coming in June, I don't really have a choice. I don't know, I'm doing my best to commit to my prayers but again, my laziness always gets the better of me. I just hope honest to god that I won't lose my shit in the middle of the semester and mess up because it would be really nice to graduate this semester and not having to extend to a third semester. So with that I leave you with this hipster-esque photo of my phone and my new macbook (for which I am extremely thankful for).

thanks for listening :)

Bali Photo Journal.

Considering I'm feeling less word-y as of late, I thought I might just post a bunch of pictures of my trip to bali hence the title. I'll provide some descriptions where t is deemed necessary:

This is a shopping complex we went to called Beachwalk which was near our hotel

eating at Johnny Rocket... Fully experiencing Bali indeed...

This is Sakala Resort and hotel which is where we had our lunch during one of the days. We stayed at another place by the way...

This is my mum and my sister pretending to be high class people.

 More pictures coming soon (hopefully)...

For some reason I can't explain...

 It's been quite a long time since I've done a proper blog entry which is mainly because I have been very busy trying to hand in my assignments in time without accidentally bursting into flames. 

Okay to be quite honest, I'm not really sure what to blog about recently because my life has so far been currently filled with college stuff and tumblr posts. So nothing much has changed. Still got no boyfriend, still an okay social life, still ain't pretty *shrugs*. But whatever, I'm going to do my best to continue blogging on since I've kept this site for almost 6 years now.

  

Alright, so for a little update: 

1. I have just completed my finals for my first semester  but as always it didn't really end as well as I hoped it would. But in good news, there were no signs of creeping panic attacks so therefore I did not go into an emotional breakdown during the exams. So new achievement unlocked! (yay!) 

2. I (nearly) finished all of my assignments (except for that annoying one) for the subjects I took this year so I now have a basic idea of the stress I am going to expect next year. Let's just hope that the stress slightly lessens by then since I already took the taxing core English subject (But I suspect it'll be more or less the same since I registered for a social science class for next year). 

3. My semester break has technically begun like 2 days ago [So here I am].

    So I think that's the latest of what I've been up to so far really, nothing much. I'm so glad that I finally got a semester break because, seriously I just cannot take another series of assignments and tests as of right now. I'm looking to spend the first few weeks of my break with a little bit of rest (which is why I'm going for a 4-day trip to Bali sometime next week) and I'm hoping to spend the rest of the days starting up on some community service hours since I haven't really started on it (f.y.i, as a student of the Canadian Pre-University programme, I am required to do at least 10 hours of community service in order to graduate). Yup, I think that's about the only things I have planned really, maybe I'll fit in a few university sightings and lonely shopping in there. The only mentionable worthy activity I've done so far is go to the Big Bad Wolf annual book sale;

for those of you who don't know, The Big Bad Wolf Book Sale (a.k.a Big Bad Wolf or BBW) is an annual book mega sale that is usually held by the end of the year.

   This was my first year going there and lucky enough I was able to go there twice. It was very thrilling going there since the books were hella cheap and were pretty new. 

    Okay, so I'm pretty tired right now so I am going to stop the post right here. I'm planning to do a BBW book haul post soon so keep a watch on that (lol, again; like anybody reads this blog, especially now). I'll try to update as much as I can on my Blogspot while I'm on my vacation. ;)

BYEEEEEEEEE......

College.... (the real deal)

 So I haven't really been blogging for a while mainly because of well, college and I don't really have much to blog about. So the last post I realised I didn't really give a full basic description of my life in "senior high school" or pre-university.  So I'll give you a quick run down, I'm doing Taylor's Canadian Pre-U program which spans for about a year. I started in the middle of July and would most likely finish my course by the end of June. I have to take 6 subjects in total minus the MOE core subjects (Malaysian studies and Islamic studies). It's a lot of work because it's a pretty packed course so I've been super exhausted and burned out a lot lately. The 3 subjects I'm currently taking are:

- ENG4U~ This is probably the only core subject everyone has to take in order to graduate so majority choose to take it within the first semester just so they could get it out of the way. My teacher's name is Ms. Aalia Sheriff and she's Indian-Canadian and I'll be damned ain't she the cutest with her pixie hair cut and sophisticated Canadian accent. She's really nice and teaches very well overall. But the work for the subject I'd say is the most out of the 3 subjects I'm currently taking because there's a lot of literary thesis stuff I have to do.

-Chemistry~ First of all, I'm taking Chem as a safety net subject because I plan to do something related to bioscience and I'm sure many universities are going to make that subject a must before I get to enter. Mr. Khaled or Mr. Khal teaches me Chem and I'm just gonna throw out the usual he's nice and teaches very well crap because it's true.But at times it can be a bit boring because we don't do a lot in his class except for staring at his slides as he explains the topic. This is the subject that I really have to study on my own because I can lose focus while inside the class at times and Mr. Khal doesn't really teach the entire content of the topic. He was formerly from Palestine but had to move to Canada due to the war. He probably has the thickest Canadian accent so far out of all the three which is kind of weird in a way. He's probably the most lenient with school work which is good but at the same time really bad because he gives high priority towards our chapter tests when determining our averages and sadly, I'm not doing so well in that department :-/

-Advanced Functions/ Pre-calculus~ Surprisingly I'm doing pretty well in this class which is a first because I've never really done well in a math class. I'm not the best but I would say I'm pretty decent. This class also rests highly on chapter tests which is like >:( , but I'm thankful that I've been able to understand the classes so far. My teacher's name is Mr. Samiee and he's new to the Taylor's CPU scene. Prior to this he's been to a bunch of different places all around the world so it's kind of hard trying to pin point where he's exactly from but I suspect he's Turkish.

Apart from that I have blended learning Mondays where there wouldn't be any structured learning on that day but students are assigned with work and are required to meet with the teacher on that day but without any specific time frame. I also have to do 10 hours of community service and to help, the school would provide some programs to help us out. I have yet to do any community service as I am a lazy bum :P

  Well I guess that's a gist of my current pre-u life that is at times exhausting but I try to enjoy as much as I can. It's pretty different when compared to my old school life but I much prefer this more, sure it can be a bit lonely at times since I don't really have "hang out friends" but sometimes I guess you got to sacrifice a little to have a good education.

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college......

 Please forgive me for not have been updating my blog for such a long time. As you can tell by the title, I've already started college ( already 4 weeks in) and as many people have said before me, it's a lot of work. Like holy crap, I've never been so exhausted in my life. I've also realised that all thic college stuff has been taking a toll on my face (look at the picture for reference). I had my first panic attack yesterday at college mainly because I had a chapter test for chemistry and I felt that I didn't study enough. I thought it would still be okay because the worst that could happen is that I do badly on that test and all I have to do is attend extra classes but a certain near car accident on my way to college really did it for me. I parked my car and  tears just burst out of my eyes like it was fireworks during raya. I washed my face and tried to keep a hold on myself but I really couldn't so like always I told people I wasn't feeling so well. Then it came.................. the purge........................................ In the midst of class, I felt something weird in my mouth so I ran into the wash room and everything just came out; my food, my emotions, my tears, (and a partial of my dignity) etc. I wasn't sure that if I was just so god damn nervous at the time so I was really panicking by then. Good ol' Maisarah gave me some panadol to sort of ease my tensions so I was okay for a good while. Until about the midst of my break that I felt my body being all weird and sensitive that I decided to go home. I took a nap and felt my body warming up so my mum brought me to the doctors. Apparently I got the stomach flu which explains all the excrement of nutrients through my mouth earlier. Lol, sorry for the graphic details :3
   So you can tell by now I'm not doing so well but I'm doing my best to get by and thankfully I've already made a few friends in my classes so it's getting better everyday. Now will you excuse me, I have some homework to do.........

La Da Di Da Di...

Damn, it sure was quite hell of the day yesterday......... if you were internet deprived since yesterday let me give you a low down on what happened:
   The case behind the shooting and eventual murder of Trayvon Martin was brought to court yesterday, and the man responsible for it (28 year-old Hispanic American George Zimmerman) was found not guilty. Okay, let me rewind this from the start,  George Zimmerman was in his vehicle running an errand when he saw 17 year old Trayvon Martin walking beyond the gated fence inside the neigbourhood looking seemingly suspicious. He (George) decided to call 911 to report on what he's seen. He leaves his car while still talking to the police and after he ended the call, he proceeded to confront Trayvon and one thing led to another, he shot him in the chest which led to Trayvon's death. I think the reason why there are so much controversy behind this is because at the time Trayvon was shot, he himself was unarmed and was still an adolescent which is eventually led to believe the reason why George Zimmerman did what he did was out of suspicion  and racial profiling alone. My opinions are gonna remain neutral for now as I believe there is more to this case that needs to be further investigated. Of course there is more to this case then what I have wrote here which can lead to my opinion  being further debated but I'm just gonna leave it at that as I feel I am not entitled to pick a side in this case.

Trayvon Martin (left), George Zimmerman (right)

   The next thing I'm going to talk about is the sudden death of actor Cory Monteith. As you all know, Cory Monteith was famous for the role of Finn Hudson on Glee and was admired and looked up to by a lot of kids my age and to be quite honest I'm pretty upset over this. Although I don't really watch Glee as much I got to say he played quite a pivotal role during my early teenage years.
    Tons of people have been speculating that he overdosed seeing it fitting because he was very open about his past drug addiction and just this past April he had successfully left rehab and people who had talked to him just days before his demise he appeared happy and determined.Of course to anyone who reads this are just gonna assume he was just some other young Hollywood star who died the typical Hollywood drug death but the thing is, we're not even sure if he really OD-ed and even if he did, it would even be just more upsetting because he seemed to be one of those people who genuinely was earnest and selfless in getting help and reaching out to people (to kids especially). So yeah, as you can tell this has nothing to do with the show or his character but him as a person. I found this text post on tumblr which pretty much describes how I feel about his death;

sebastiansmythe:

the fact that cory was such a genuinely good person and was actively trying to get better is even worse like not just that he was famous and important but that he was talented and humble and actually deserved the good things that he got and none of the bad things
sebastiansmythe: the fact that cory was such a genuinely good person and was actively trying to get better is even worse like not just that he was famous and important but that he was talented and humble and actually deserved the good things that he got and none of the bad things i’m just really really upset about it

   But his tragic death shouldn't in any way overshadow his work but more importantly his kindness and warmth with people!

Cory Monteith.......thanks for the memories! You've done so much and influenced so many.

 P.S
Sorry for the weirdly serious post. I just thought I had to bring it up.
If you want to know more about the 2 topics I blogged today, here's the links;
http://www.foxnews.com/entertainment/2013/07/15/autopsy-on-glee-star-cory-monteith-set-for-monday/
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trayvon_Martin