college......

 Please forgive me for not have been updating my blog for such a long time. As you can tell by the title, I've already started college ( already 4 weeks in) and as many people have said before me, it's a lot of work. Like holy crap, I've never been so exhausted in my life. I've also realised that all thic college stuff has been taking a toll on my face (look at the picture for reference). I had my first panic attack yesterday at college mainly because I had a chapter test for chemistry and I felt that I didn't study enough. I thought it would still be okay because the worst that could happen is that I do badly on that test and all I have to do is attend extra classes but a certain near car accident on my way to college really did it for me. I parked my car and  tears just burst out of my eyes like it was fireworks during raya. I washed my face and tried to keep a hold on myself but I really couldn't so like always I told people I wasn't feeling so well. Then it came.................. the purge........................................ In the midst of class, I felt something weird in my mouth so I ran into the wash room and everything just came out; my food, my emotions, my tears, (and a partial of my dignity) etc. I wasn't sure that if I was just so god damn nervous at the time so I was really panicking by then. Good ol' Maisarah gave me some panadol to sort of ease my tensions so I was okay for a good while. Until about the midst of my break that I felt my body being all weird and sensitive that I decided to go home. I took a nap and felt my body warming up so my mum brought me to the doctors. Apparently I got the stomach flu which explains all the excrement of nutrients through my mouth earlier. Lol, sorry for the graphic details :3
   So you can tell by now I'm not doing so well but I'm doing my best to get by and thankfully I've already made a few friends in my classes so it's getting better everyday. Now will you excuse me, I have some homework to do.........