In all that chaos there is calculation...

   Sorry for not updating blogs you guys. As usual I have school to attend to and I haven't really got an idea what to contemplate about (well maybe I do but I just don't know how to eloquently present it). So I'm just going to post my midterms and give you my opinions on it.

   Dum!Dum!Dum! Here they are friends! To be quite honest I'm actually slightly upset with my progress here. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this to you guys but despite the short length of time between the beginning of the semester and the midterms, your midterm marks are actually extremely important as most people use it to send in their applications to universities overseas and it basically is the standard grade that would set the bar on how well you're cable of doing for the semester. It's pretty difficult to lift your grades that is like 10 marks higher or vice versa, if there is any changes made into your grade it'll be like a couple of points more or less (unless you flunked hard on the final examinations). I was hoping to get a 90% for at least one of my subjects but it was not going to happen...It's hard to admit but all of my lecturers this semester are greedy hardballs (wwhhaaattt??) when it comes to giving out grades.

  I'm currently having a long weekend break so with long weekends comes with a long list of assignments:

The list app is Wunderlist

   As per usual, I haven't done any of it yet (lol) but I'm going to start soon I promise (gulp)! hahahaha...  My brother's having his annual All-Boys slumber party with his friends tonight so I'm not sure how I'll cope with that since the top floor of my house (my brother's room) don't have the thickest floors and walls. I also calculated that the average weight of the boys would be about 85kg so......I'm not condemning their weight in any way it's just that my brother has REALLY TALL GIGANTIC FRIENDS 0.0 But I'll do my best to manage like I have been doing for the past 7 years...

  A little on the flip side, I've started casually reading fiction again (yay!). First book on the list:

Paper Towns by John Green! I've always loved John Green as an author and a person in general. He writes the most beautiful stories and I'm lucky to have read almost all of them! His latest book, The Fault In Our Stars has been turned into a movie and it'll be out in theatres soon so I'm SUPER STOKED! But I have to be quite honest and say, I'm kind of doubting the actor choice for the role of Augustus 'Gus' Waters (leading male). If you don't know, the person who's playing the character is Ansel Elgort:

Ain't he quite the stud?

He seemed stiff in the Divergent and trios movie trailers...

But I hope I'm wrong and he does well in both movies. Either way I'll be happy as long as John Green's happy with how his book-to-movie adaptation turns out (fingers crossed).  Good movie or bad movie, trios (The Fault In Our Stars) is a beautiful story. I'll post some behind the scenes stuff from the trios movie from John Green's Youtube channel (yes, John Green has a popular Youtube channel...).

Aida

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-3H1T3xqzZY

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=523xQXeKWig

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0AHL0OwZvF4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Degozv3kZH4

we can't play on broken strings

So I'm full speed ahead with college and all that hoo ha. I'm already in my 3rd week (I think) and everything's still pretty alright (I hope).  Although I feel I'm pretty behind right now especially in calculus and vectors. Probably because my teacher's confusing the hell out of me but I just don't have the guts to admit it. But he says vectors itself is pretty confusing in itself so I guess it's okay.
   To be quite honest with you I'm not really looking forward to this semester since I already have good knowledge of all the heavy work and late nights I got myself into last semester. Furthermore, I have yet to start on any form of community service so I have a lot coming ahead. Oh I also have to take the Ontario Secondary School Literacy Test this March so......... (*proceeds to tear pieces of hair out). I mean there's an overwhelming amount of work coming and I feel extremely scared. My social science teacher told me this semester is going to be the shortest CPU sem on record and we're in shit loads of trouble because we have to get a master's degree size thesis done in about 5 months............................. Like shit man! Those things are suppose to be a one year thing, regardless if you have a partner or not.  So let me correct myself, college right now is NOT "pretty alright". It's very scary and stressful and I couldn't be more than happier that there's a long Chinese new year holiday starting from tomorrow. But at the same time I dread that there's such a long holiday because then I'll start slacking about and there won't be a lot of progress with my school work. I'm sure people are gonna say that I should try to organise my time and all but that's the thing.  I don't have the will power to do that!!! Ugh, lazy middle class student dilemma!!!! But seriously, even when I plan something there's always some mysterious surprise thing I have to do at the very last minute. I'm also not that good in prioritising.
    But ultimately I'm just scared that I won't be able to perform as well as I did last semester:

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I'm pretty proud of myself at doing incredibly well but now comes that fear of not being able to perform up to par as last semester. Especially since math ain't as easy as it was last semester. To be quite honest, the only thing I continuously had trouble with last semester was chemistry...... I know it seems slightly ridiculous for worrying about everything while only at the third week of school but with graduation coming in June, I don't really have a choice. I don't know, I'm doing my best to commit to my prayers but again, my laziness always gets the better of me. I just hope honest to god that I won't lose my shit in the middle of the semester and mess up because it would be really nice to graduate this semester and not having to extend to a third semester. So with that I leave you with this hipster-esque photo of my phone and my new macbook (for which I am extremely thankful for).

thanks for listening :)