Waiting for the day...

Bilalah kedai Urban Outfitters akan membuat kemunculannya di Malaysia?
But seriously though, bila????

Light Em Up, Up,Up!

 I've been losing sleep these past few days because I am over thinking my driver's test for next week. It's a bit ridiculous that I'm panicking over this since a lot of people have failed it and re took the test probably about two to three more times. But somehow I'm just so afraid . I got the whole parking and three point thing down but I'm still having trouble with coming down from the bukit and I'm just so well damn paranoid if the car starts jerking and suddenly dies out sometime during the test, especially the jalanraya one. I'm also paranoid that I might tip over on to the double line when beginning my test and I just end up failing the whole thing miserably. I'm also afraid that I might accidentally hit a pole during my parking and three point turn test and etc....... So as you can see I'm really freaking out here.
   I really want to get it over with so the relatives would stop asking questions and give me funny looks when I tell them I haven't gotten my driver's permit yet. Another worrisome thing is that I haven't registered for college yet! But most probably I'm going to Taylor's. I have accepted the fact that I'll most probably end up doing a degree locally since my parents have shelled out quite a lot for my sister so she could go to the US.
    I'm also having trouble sleeping as of late because I received a new temporary room mate in the form of my mum because my brother's home and he's currently sleeping in my parent's room with my dad. I don't get why he has to sleep in there considering he already has his own room right above mine -_-. Now I know what your thinking (like anyone ever reads this blog, psshh...) "What's so bad about having your mum sleep in the same room as you? It's not like she snores or anything...." Well, to be quite honest, that is what she exactly does..........................she snores...........................................................................loudly...............
I love my mum and all of that she has done for me but it's pretty difficult to get pass that when you're trying to sleep away all the crazy in your head. But to be quite fair I am a late sleeper...... But I'm trying my best to overcome this weird pseudo-ish insomnia like I've stopped taking naps during the day, cutting caffeine, exercising a bit more but it seems to not really work. I'm also trying to read more of the Quran and doing night prayers (like solat hajat) when I can't sleep.  So I guess there is an upside to it. The other day I saw someone put up a quote on FB, it said:


     "When you're having problems, the Quran is the best means of relevant and personal advice directly from Allah."

- Ustadh Nouman Ali Khan

 I'm not sure if it was sign from Allah SWT but I'm gonna treat it like it is and hopefully I can commit to reading it more often. :-) 

don't go chasing waterfalls

One of the many materials that I cherish in life are books. Each page is filled with enormous mystery and wonder that my imagination constantly anticipates which is why they've always played such an integral part of my life and how I view things in general. So since I have nothing much to write about as of late, I give you pictures of; My bookshelf !

It's pretty much in a state of total mess but I seem to like it in that way. Behind almost every book there's probably another book that I've hopefully read so you can see this shelf doesn't really accommodate much space. Besides books, I have my comic books, random junk, a mini locker with a cow print, cards, trinkets, trophies and etc. It's not organised or pretty to look at but that's what makes it special! Every book I chuck in there comes with a fond memory and every time I take one of them out of the shelf I am reminded of it. So regardless of how gay and sentimental I sound right now, this little book shelf means a lot to me. Besides, this thing has been attached to my bed for years so it's pretty hard to miss.

Do not judge the race car bed sheets, I swear those are the most comfortable sheets I have rested on.

More Product placement!!

When boredom strikes, take pictures...

Product placement

Sunshine lollipops and rainbows

On the left is Aqilah, Athira and I camwhoring on the school computer in 2009 and on the right is us camwhoring at Tangs in 2011.

    I've been fortunate to have 2 very close friends that have stuck with me since the very  first (okay, second) day of school in 2008 all the way until now. I always seem to forget how much impact they've made in my life for the better. Believe me, not everyone has the right kind of morals and patience so I am very thankful to Allah SWT for blessing me with the introduction of these 2 (slightly weird) and wonderful people on that day in 2008. Although there were some ups and downs but we learned our lessons and had stuck together ever since. Not a lot of people in my school have the privilege to say that they've been with their friends since the beginning of their adolescence until now.
   This year will be the first time where we won't be going to the same school. Athira will be doing her diploma in Sarawak and Aqilah will be doing her A levels at KYUEM so there are pretty big changes happening to our power of three soon but I hope it's for the better. So before I end this post, I would like to wish you both the very best at your new schools and thank you for being such wonderful friends to little old anxiety-prone me :'D

Us camwhoring at an ice-cream parlour in 2013!

will you look at that..

Now what do I do with this........

Frito Lays (warning, emo rant)

Well, just got back on what was suppose to be my last driving lesson before I go do my test. I wish I could say it's going great but I would be lying. It seems that with every lesson I seem to have a worse experience than the last. I was able to do the bukit test with slight improvement but my parking skills are horrendous (seriously, there were other instructors laughing at me). 3 point turn took some getting use to but in the end I got the gist of it. So initially I thought if I work on it a little more I'll get it right so I was ready to return home in an okay mood. Then after dropping someone at Shah Alam, my instructor told me to takeover and drive us back to subang. That's when the real shit starts happening...

    Late turns at junctions, slow gear changing, skidding,  all sorts of driving nightmares happened. Oh, let me also add that I nearly hit someone at the highway because I had trouble slowing down! Even though I already saw the other car obviously slowing down, somehow my legs refused to do the same! My instructor was so frustrated with me and in the end he told me that he still doesn't understand how I'm still so bad at driving because usually students are already able to drive like pros by now. When we arrived at my house he saw that I was upset and he tried to nicely tell me to not be so nervous. But that just got me even more sad and frustrated because the truth is; I have no idea how to suppress it and I won't be able to figure out how to do it anytime soon.
      So I ran into my house and poured a river of tears feeling all anxious and frustrated. Feeling overwhelmed with negativity, repeatedly berzikir in hopes of drying all these tears away.

   Here's the situation, it's one thing to be told that you need extra classes for a certain SPM subject, and there's another thing to be told that you need extra lessons for driving......DRIVING!! The skill that a good majority of people above the age of 17 are already incredibly capable at by the time they start the first of ten driving lesson hours. Even my 16 year old cousin has started driving to malls by herself. This goes to show you how really slow and bad I am at adapting to things............Being incredibly anxious all the time doesn't help either. AAAAGGGHHHH!!!!! I'm so UPSET!!!!!

So yeah I guess that's my emo rant for today :/

   

Little Mix - How Ya Doin'? ft. Missy Elliott

 Another song to obsess over!!

How Ya' Doin?

Little Mix-Wings (SO OBSESSED WITH THIS SONG OMG!)

These wings are made to fly

 So today was my official second driving lesson and it didn't go as well. My instructor made me drive all the way to Klang, firstly for a tire change (Which took forever!!) and to go to the testing center so I could learn how to naik and turun the bukit. He got frustrated pretty quickly because I had issues trying to come down the hill. It was really hard to adjust but he couldn't possibly understand my difficulty so he thought scolding me many times out of frustration will get me to learn but no, it just got me really agitated. (Agitated to the point I was ready to swerve the car off the hill in anger..... e___e). I also still have problems trying to adjust the gears at times which got him even more upset so the entire time I was driving on the highway I was like this; @____________,@
 At the end of the day he kept distressing that I should be improving with every lesson and in my head I was just like "excuse me? that was only my second time driving a manual car okay? What did you expect? For me to already start driving like an F1 racer?" So yeah, I was pretty upset today and I'm not really looking forward for my next class tomorrow. My mum made a deal with this guy to make sure I can get all my 10 hours done by this week you see so I can go for my test as soon as possible. It kind of made me think that I'll probably won't be able to pass the test within the first round, which frustrates me even more UUGGHHH!!! *breathe* *selawat*  Man I need to cool down, but how can I if the Malaysian heat continues to fry each and every one of us.. Even my cat can't handle the heat wave see;

But whatever it is I hope this heat wave would go soon (I meant that both literally and metaphorically) and a cool breeze will come our way like a gracious and ayu lady in a kebaya. Chewah! Lol, couldn't resist myself hehehehehehe...

Ibu, Ibu, engkaulah ratu hatiku

Blueberry muffins for the special day

San Diego part deux

Okay, so after quite some time of not blogging I finally found the strength to continue on so here it goes, part TWO!!!
 So after all that shopping and beach seeing Marlene and Abang Noor invited us back to her place to have some dinner and socialising!

Marlene's mum Stella :3

their dog Kayla

Abang Noor's friend whose name I forgot

*drools*

 

their fat cat cashmere ;)

Popular Song

Okay haven't been blogging for a while and to be quite honest I'm now too lazy to continue blogging about my adventures in the states but I'm sure I'll do it some other time. Recent updates, I finally picked up my Lesen L and will finally start practical driving lessons  tomorrow! Like what?? Nervous yo! Thanks to my mum, she was able to contact another driving school that allowed me to do the practicals and the test only without paying the full Rm1000+ price. So yay!

please ignore the look on my face.

In other news this happened;

The inevitable rejection e-mail

Not really sure what to feel about this........ e_________e

 So that's what happened today.... oh, and I've started reading a new book series!

That's right, this series. It was pretty inevitable to avoid the book series since I like the TV series so much but it became too complicated to watch since I started out pretty late and new characters keep piling up as the TV series progressed. The first book has been pretty interesting but I still have a lot more to go (one book's like 700+ pages my god!). So far my favourite character from the series is Jaime Lannister. The pompous yet charming sister-loving, king slaying  knight. He's gone through some crazy sh*t in the show from having a weird incestuous relationship with his twin sister (who happens to be the queen) in season 1 to having his right hand (or his sword hand as people say) chopped off in season 3. Yeah, he's sickly retarded in a way but as the series continues you will see that he is incredibly flawed and just needed someone to listen to what he has to say. Therefore on account of that (and his incredible good looks) I am willing to overlook his sometimes immoral behaviour. 

Jaime Lannister in Season 1 of GoT

Jaime Lannister in Season 3 of GoT

P.S
Seriously, look at that guy! The actor doesn't belong in the real world. He should be saving [or kidnapping] princesses in a Disney cartoon!