Friday, March 28, 2014
In all that chaos there is calculation...
Sorry for not updating blogs you guys. As usual I have school to attend to and I haven't really got an idea what to contemplate about (well maybe I do but I just don't know how to eloquently present it). So I'm just going to post my midterms and give you my opinions on it.
Dum!Dum!Dum! Here they are friends! To be quite honest I'm actually slightly upset with my progress here. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this to you guys but despite the short length of time between the beginning of the semester and the midterms, your midterm marks are actually extremely important as most people use it to send in their applications to universities overseas and it basically is the standard grade that would set the bar on how well you're cable of doing for the semester. It's pretty difficult to lift your grades that is like 10 marks higher or vice versa, if there is any changes made into your grade it'll be like a couple of points more or less (unless you flunked hard on the final examinations). I was hoping to get a 90% for at least one of my subjects but it was not going to happen...It's hard to admit but all of my lecturers this semester are greedy hardballs (wwhhaaattt??) when it comes to giving out grades.
I'm currently having a long weekend break so with long weekends comes with a long list of assignments:
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| The list app is Wunderlist |
As per usual, I haven't done any of it yet (lol) but I'm going to start soon I promise (gulp)! hahahaha... My brother's having his annual All-Boys slumber party with his friends tonight so I'm not sure how I'll cope with that since the top floor of my house (my brother's room) don't have the thickest floors and walls. I also calculated that the average weight of the boys would be about 85kg so......I'm not condemning their weight in any way it's just that my brother has REALLY TALL GIGANTIC FRIENDS 0.0 But I'll do my best to manage like I have been doing for the past 7 years...
A little on the flip side, I've started casually reading fiction again (yay!). First book on the list:
Paper Towns by John Green! I've always loved John Green as an author and a person in general. He writes the most beautiful stories and I'm lucky to have read almost all of them! His latest book, The Fault In Our Stars has been turned into a movie and it'll be out in theatres soon so I'm SUPER STOKED! But I have to be quite honest and say, I'm kind of doubting the actor choice for the role of Augustus 'Gus' Waters (leading male). If you don't know, the person who's playing the character is Ansel Elgort:
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| Ain't he quite the stud? |
He seemed stiff in the Divergent and trios movie trailers...
But I hope I'm wrong and he does well in both movies. Either way I'll be happy as long as John Green's happy with how his book-to-movie adaptation turns out (fingers crossed). Good movie or bad movie, trios (The Fault In Our Stars) is a beautiful story. I'll post some behind the scenes stuff from the trios movie from John Green's Youtube channel (yes, John Green has a popular Youtube channel...).
Aida
Saturday, March 1, 2014
We will find you acting on your best behaviour...
Tonight is just one of those nights where I know I have some school work to get done but I can't find myself to care even a little bit. It's not as much as hell weekend work but it carries some weight (the kind of weight light enough for me to not care, LOL). So I spend the long Saturday nights not doing much except go read superficial magazines, eat ice cream and doing other useless things I guess. I'm not sure why I'm doing this right now (maybe I'm still coming off from "Hell Weekend") and I know it's not a good thing, but I like it very much. I'll probably regret it the next night but I enjoy the feeling of not being in a hurry all the time. I don't have to worry about doing the next assignment, or rearranging my schedule to fit this class or event and etc. But then again, I'll end up coming off with this thing I call "the weekend hangover" where I'll be in a rush to get everything ready for the beginning of another hectic school week. Okay, so now that's put aside, I've got another drama to blog about in my life (I really need to stop whining on this blog, my god)
The reason why I'm typing this situation out is because; 1. no one really reads this blog so I'm okay, 2. no one in my life really understands this particular situation I'm currently experiencing so I thought it's just best to type it all down here. So here it goes:
So remember about that thesis thing I had to do for my social science class? Well I initially had a partner who was suppose to do it with me. This partner happened to be a close friend I made during my first semester at CPU. So within those few weeks of the 2nd semester, parts of the assignment was given for us to complete which would eventually be compiled with the future parts of the ISU assignments later on. I realised that I was doing the bulk of the work and I even had to spend a lot of time helping her out doing her part of the work which frustrated me but I couldn't really tell her because: 1. she's a friend, 2. I know that she really struggles with understanding and organising the ideas when it comes to this particular class so I can't really penalise her for it. So instead I released all my frustrations on to a friend from Calculus class who also happens to be taking the same subject but during a different period. So this former thesis partner of mine continue to have problems finishing her work on time and as a result, she would intentionally skip those classes to avoid having to explain her issue with these given assignments. Eventually my social science (C&C) lecturer caught on and blatantly asked me during a class if my partner was doing anything which I then went into defence mode and said that she was because truthfully, she actually was doing some work, it's just that she hasn't been handing it in (note that I was in a different class period when this happened, so this mentioned partner wasn't there to hear it). So she continued to skip more classes to avoid confrontation and one day I just thought, "you know what? maybe she's really struggling in this class and I should talk to my lecturer to discuss this." So I did, I called him out and nervously presented my worries to him (he's a big muscular guy, have some sympathy for me)..... I don't know, maybe it came out wrong or maybe it's my subconscious doing this but from one thing to another, he down right said that he's going to kick my partner out of his class. He said that she skipped his class 4 days (3 actually) in a row and he feels that it's not fair to me. So I freaked out because I didn't realise that he was going to do that ( I just wanted him to go talk to her parents, I didn't want her to get into that much trouble????!?!??!?!) so I stuttered my way through trying to explain that her other "priorities" are putting a lot of pressure and etc. but he had made his mind up. He told me that he already sent an email to the vice principal (VP) about her and he was going down to the office right away to ask the VP to call my former partner up and demand her for some explanation (she skipped class on that day too). So in my head I was just like; "f*ck! Did I just rat her out? Holy crap why did I call him out to discuss about this??!!! Sh*t! Sh*t! Sh*t!". So I sat back down, continuing my work while he went down to the office. A while later, he called me back out to tell me what's up. He told me that the VP just called her and gave her an earful and he also told me that he's going to wipe her current grades out clean and he's making her start over all of the work he had given the class, in my head I was like, "awww sh*t, I'm too far gone now". To add to my "aww sh*t" moment, he said that she doesn't know yet that he wiped her grades out clean and all that stuff. So on Monday, she'll be like coming into class expecting the usual not knowing that he did that but I know that he did all that and aaaaaggggghhhhhhh!!!!
So at this stage, I haven't really talked to her about what she feels about this and discuss about the information I know. I really want to share all of what I know just to get her prepared for this coming Monday but I'm afraid of how she would react. I don't want to add to her current worries yet at the same time it'll be cruel to just let things be and let her be extremely embarrassed and surprised when my lecturer tells this to her on Monday. Who knows how he'll break it to her (note that apart from being a big guy, he's also very brash and sometimes really harsh). He might even announce it to the whole class for all we know??!!!!
Just to summarise how I feel about this, I'm actually a little relieved that I'm working alone for the thesis now since I don't have to worry how she's doing but at the same time I feel really bad because I sort of basically called her out. Now I'm sure she's wondering what the f*ck I told my lecturer that day because I remembered texting her telling that either if she decides to come or not for class, my lecturer's already aware that she was in college. She then told me to tell him that she "went back home early" or something. But by then it was too late, he was already frustrated with her string of absences and I was already to fed up with the whole progress of the assignment (this happened before I asked to talk to my lecturer privately).
So I'm at a loss. At one end I think it's a good thing that this is happening to her (because that girl really needs to set her priorities straight and not trouble others) but at the other end, not all 19 year olds have their priorities figured out and she is a good genuine person who just wants to enjoy her time committing to her other activities before she enters the adult world. We all know that the adult world isn't a fun place to be in especially when we're pressured into a career and/or life we don't really want.
So I guess that's the theme of tonight's post, priorities ...........
Man that's a sombre conclusion, I really need to lighten up my posts. Whatever it is, I hope that I could remain friends with her because I don't want to end my semester in a sour note.
Wednesday, February 26, 2014
Life so far.
Last weekend is what I'd like to call the "Hell Weekend". Never in my life was I given so much work to finish off to the point that I was ready to burst like an atomic bomb. Let me remind you that the assignments I was suppose to finish that weekend was not a last minute, procrastination, "should've done it earlier" kind of thing. It was just a shit load of assignments given from a couple of lecturers who were freaking out over key-ing in mid semester marks and were unaware that their students had other subjects to attend to. Let me just list down the things that had to be done before the weekend was up:
Calculus and Vectors 12 (MCV4U):-
1. Prepare respective part of slides for Chapter 7 summary presentation (group presentation of chapter
7 of MCV4U)
2. Prepare nine Chapter 6 & 7 quiz questions+solutions as part of the Individual Study Unit (ISU)
3. Prepare summary notes for mentioned presentation (this wasn't a "rajin" thing. I really had to summarise a part of chapter 7 of MCV4U, type it out, print it, compile with my group members summary notes and hand it to the lecturer and students)
4. Compile my quiz questions+solutions with my group members'( quiz questions+solutions) and turn it into a quiz packet for the other students as part of chapter 6 & 7 revision for the upcoming test.
5. Study chapter 6 & 7 for THE UPCOMING TEST, which was today....
6. Finish chapter 7 homework.
Challenge & Change [social science class] (HSB4M)
1. find more research articles related to negative effects of media.
2. From there, pick two out of the many articles and write a summary about it along with the author of the article's biodata and determine the article's bias (among many other things).
3. Find its citation(bibliography, reference etc.), type it down (according to format) and attach it with the summary.
4. Determine the thesis hypothesis for ISU. (F.Y.I this subject requires us to create a thesis project as part of the ISU)
Biology 12 (SBI4U):-
1. Complete lab report on Catalase Enzyme Reaction
2. Study Chapter 1 for Biology test, which was that exact Monday after "Hell Weekend"
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Bali photo journal ( gourmet food edition)
we can't play on broken strings
To be quite honest with you I'm not really looking forward to this semester since I already have good knowledge of all the heavy work and late nights I got myself into last semester. Furthermore, I have yet to start on any form of community service so I have a lot coming ahead. Oh I also have to take the Ontario Secondary School Literacy Test this March so......... (*proceeds to tear pieces of hair out). I mean there's an overwhelming amount of work coming and I feel extremely scared. My social science teacher told me this semester is going to be the shortest CPU sem on record and we're in shit loads of trouble because we have to get a master's degree size thesis done in about 5 months............................. Like shit man! Those things are suppose to be a one year thing, regardless if you have a partner or not. So let me correct myself, college right now is NOT "pretty alright". It's very scary and stressful and I couldn't be more than happier that there's a long Chinese new year holiday starting from tomorrow. But at the same time I dread that there's such a long holiday because then I'll start slacking about and there won't be a lot of progress with my school work. I'm sure people are gonna say that I should try to organise my time and all but that's the thing. I don't have the will power to do that!!! Ugh, lazy middle class student dilemma!!!! But seriously, even when I plan something there's always some mysterious surprise thing I have to do at the very last minute. I'm also not that good in prioritising.
But ultimately I'm just scared that I won't be able to perform as well as I did last semester:
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Thursday, January 2, 2014
Bali Photo Journal.
Considering I'm feeling less word-y as of late, I thought I might just post a bunch of pictures of my trip to bali hence the title. I'll provide some descriptions where t is deemed necessary:
More pictures coming soon (hopefully)...
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| This is a shopping complex we went to called Beachwalk which was near our hotel |
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| eating at Johnny Rocket... Fully experiencing Bali indeed... |
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| This is Sakala Resort and hotel which is where we had our lunch during one of the days. We stayed at another place by the way... |
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| This is my mum and my sister pretending to be high class people. |
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