Friday, March 28, 2014
In all that chaos there is calculation...
Sorry for not updating blogs you guys. As usual I have school to attend to and I haven't really got an idea what to contemplate about (well maybe I do but I just don't know how to eloquently present it). So I'm just going to post my midterms and give you my opinions on it.
Dum!Dum!Dum! Here they are friends! To be quite honest I'm actually slightly upset with my progress here. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this to you guys but despite the short length of time between the beginning of the semester and the midterms, your midterm marks are actually extremely important as most people use it to send in their applications to universities overseas and it basically is the standard grade that would set the bar on how well you're cable of doing for the semester. It's pretty difficult to lift your grades that is like 10 marks higher or vice versa, if there is any changes made into your grade it'll be like a couple of points more or less (unless you flunked hard on the final examinations). I was hoping to get a 90% for at least one of my subjects but it was not going to happen...It's hard to admit but all of my lecturers this semester are greedy hardballs (wwhhaaattt??) when it comes to giving out grades.
I'm currently having a long weekend break so with long weekends comes with a long list of assignments:
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| The list app is Wunderlist |
As per usual, I haven't done any of it yet (lol) but I'm going to start soon I promise (gulp)! hahahaha... My brother's having his annual All-Boys slumber party with his friends tonight so I'm not sure how I'll cope with that since the top floor of my house (my brother's room) don't have the thickest floors and walls. I also calculated that the average weight of the boys would be about 85kg so......I'm not condemning their weight in any way it's just that my brother has REALLY TALL GIGANTIC FRIENDS 0.0 But I'll do my best to manage like I have been doing for the past 7 years...
A little on the flip side, I've started casually reading fiction again (yay!). First book on the list:
Paper Towns by John Green! I've always loved John Green as an author and a person in general. He writes the most beautiful stories and I'm lucky to have read almost all of them! His latest book, The Fault In Our Stars has been turned into a movie and it'll be out in theatres soon so I'm SUPER STOKED! But I have to be quite honest and say, I'm kind of doubting the actor choice for the role of Augustus 'Gus' Waters (leading male). If you don't know, the person who's playing the character is Ansel Elgort:
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| Ain't he quite the stud? |
He seemed stiff in the Divergent and trios movie trailers...
But I hope I'm wrong and he does well in both movies. Either way I'll be happy as long as John Green's happy with how his book-to-movie adaptation turns out (fingers crossed). Good movie or bad movie, trios (The Fault In Our Stars) is a beautiful story. I'll post some behind the scenes stuff from the trios movie from John Green's Youtube channel (yes, John Green has a popular Youtube channel...).
Aida
Saturday, March 1, 2014
We will find you acting on your best behaviour...
Tonight is just one of those nights where I know I have some school work to get done but I can't find myself to care even a little bit. It's not as much as hell weekend work but it carries some weight (the kind of weight light enough for me to not care, LOL). So I spend the long Saturday nights not doing much except go read superficial magazines, eat ice cream and doing other useless things I guess. I'm not sure why I'm doing this right now (maybe I'm still coming off from "Hell Weekend") and I know it's not a good thing, but I like it very much. I'll probably regret it the next night but I enjoy the feeling of not being in a hurry all the time. I don't have to worry about doing the next assignment, or rearranging my schedule to fit this class or event and etc. But then again, I'll end up coming off with this thing I call "the weekend hangover" where I'll be in a rush to get everything ready for the beginning of another hectic school week. Okay, so now that's put aside, I've got another drama to blog about in my life (I really need to stop whining on this blog, my god)
The reason why I'm typing this situation out is because; 1. no one really reads this blog so I'm okay, 2. no one in my life really understands this particular situation I'm currently experiencing so I thought it's just best to type it all down here. So here it goes:
So remember about that thesis thing I had to do for my social science class? Well I initially had a partner who was suppose to do it with me. This partner happened to be a close friend I made during my first semester at CPU. So within those few weeks of the 2nd semester, parts of the assignment was given for us to complete which would eventually be compiled with the future parts of the ISU assignments later on. I realised that I was doing the bulk of the work and I even had to spend a lot of time helping her out doing her part of the work which frustrated me but I couldn't really tell her because: 1. she's a friend, 2. I know that she really struggles with understanding and organising the ideas when it comes to this particular class so I can't really penalise her for it. So instead I released all my frustrations on to a friend from Calculus class who also happens to be taking the same subject but during a different period. So this former thesis partner of mine continue to have problems finishing her work on time and as a result, she would intentionally skip those classes to avoid having to explain her issue with these given assignments. Eventually my social science (C&C) lecturer caught on and blatantly asked me during a class if my partner was doing anything which I then went into defence mode and said that she was because truthfully, she actually was doing some work, it's just that she hasn't been handing it in (note that I was in a different class period when this happened, so this mentioned partner wasn't there to hear it). So she continued to skip more classes to avoid confrontation and one day I just thought, "you know what? maybe she's really struggling in this class and I should talk to my lecturer to discuss this." So I did, I called him out and nervously presented my worries to him (he's a big muscular guy, have some sympathy for me)..... I don't know, maybe it came out wrong or maybe it's my subconscious doing this but from one thing to another, he down right said that he's going to kick my partner out of his class. He said that she skipped his class 4 days (3 actually) in a row and he feels that it's not fair to me. So I freaked out because I didn't realise that he was going to do that ( I just wanted him to go talk to her parents, I didn't want her to get into that much trouble????!?!??!?!) so I stuttered my way through trying to explain that her other "priorities" are putting a lot of pressure and etc. but he had made his mind up. He told me that he already sent an email to the vice principal (VP) about her and he was going down to the office right away to ask the VP to call my former partner up and demand her for some explanation (she skipped class on that day too). So in my head I was just like; "f*ck! Did I just rat her out? Holy crap why did I call him out to discuss about this??!!! Sh*t! Sh*t! Sh*t!". So I sat back down, continuing my work while he went down to the office. A while later, he called me back out to tell me what's up. He told me that the VP just called her and gave her an earful and he also told me that he's going to wipe her current grades out clean and he's making her start over all of the work he had given the class, in my head I was like, "awww sh*t, I'm too far gone now". To add to my "aww sh*t" moment, he said that she doesn't know yet that he wiped her grades out clean and all that stuff. So on Monday, she'll be like coming into class expecting the usual not knowing that he did that but I know that he did all that and aaaaaggggghhhhhhh!!!!
So at this stage, I haven't really talked to her about what she feels about this and discuss about the information I know. I really want to share all of what I know just to get her prepared for this coming Monday but I'm afraid of how she would react. I don't want to add to her current worries yet at the same time it'll be cruel to just let things be and let her be extremely embarrassed and surprised when my lecturer tells this to her on Monday. Who knows how he'll break it to her (note that apart from being a big guy, he's also very brash and sometimes really harsh). He might even announce it to the whole class for all we know??!!!!
Just to summarise how I feel about this, I'm actually a little relieved that I'm working alone for the thesis now since I don't have to worry how she's doing but at the same time I feel really bad because I sort of basically called her out. Now I'm sure she's wondering what the f*ck I told my lecturer that day because I remembered texting her telling that either if she decides to come or not for class, my lecturer's already aware that she was in college. She then told me to tell him that she "went back home early" or something. But by then it was too late, he was already frustrated with her string of absences and I was already to fed up with the whole progress of the assignment (this happened before I asked to talk to my lecturer privately).
So I'm at a loss. At one end I think it's a good thing that this is happening to her (because that girl really needs to set her priorities straight and not trouble others) but at the other end, not all 19 year olds have their priorities figured out and she is a good genuine person who just wants to enjoy her time committing to her other activities before she enters the adult world. We all know that the adult world isn't a fun place to be in especially when we're pressured into a career and/or life we don't really want.
So I guess that's the theme of tonight's post, priorities ...........
Man that's a sombre conclusion, I really need to lighten up my posts. Whatever it is, I hope that I could remain friends with her because I don't want to end my semester in a sour note.
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