Eyes on fire

Assalamualaikum and heyyoh!!!!
SPM's near.... what's new? I am currently looking forscholarship and bursaries for pre-u program and as you know from my previous entries, I am looking forward to doing IB but y'all know that shit ain't cheap. I've been doing this for the past three days now and I've never felt so emotionally broken in my entire life. My results for my trials have been pretty okay so far (let's hope this good fortune goes smooth till the end) but applying for IB's ain't easy. I'm not talking about just the scholarships, apparently to get into that program in general is hard as it is. Other than the obvious consistent academic achievement and outstanding results in SPM and trials there's also the involvement in co-curriculum, extra corriculum, community service and etc... oh, there's also personal statements and apparently an interview before being accepted into IB. Lord knows the last thing I'm capable of doing is being good at interviews. Seriously, I am a ticking time bomb at these things. You should've seen me during my E-club interview at school o_o. (I got accepted either way, but sadly....... there is no more E-club at school :( )  I'm also looking into other options like AUSMAT and A-levels but either way I'm still going through an emotional imbalance. I've been reconsidering to go into medicine because there's this great school in Serdang called Perdana University and they have a great relationship with John Hopkins School of Medicine and Royal College of Surgeons in Ireland. Those of whom are interested in continuing their studies in medicine know that these 2 places is where you want to be. :3 I'm getting good momentum in my studies but I swear my head is just gonna blow up!!! I've been getting mixed signals from my parents recently, especially my mum. She's been asking  me to relax (because I've been very tensed )and the next second she's telling me to go revise. It's been very dangerous being around her. She said she's been very stressed lately with work and the fact that my sister hasn't been giving any signs about her university applications for the US. So because of that, not only has she been giving me weird vibes, she also is trying to keep tabs on my grades and a bunch of other SPM-related things. So, that's it, I'm late for jogging now, phew... really happy got all that out now! Bye!

I don't wanna hold I want a chocolate fountain...

Assalamualaikum and hey again,
It's been a really since I made an entry again. I just finished my trials and I can tell you right now that it didn't go very well. It went well for certain subjects but the rest, not so much. There are at least 1 month left to the big day and as usual I ain't ready yet. But I'm not gonna rant about that today to avoid myself from getting too emotional. But I'm sure I'm going to have to talk with my parents soon because I'm sure there's going to be a parent-teacher day after this. Which reminds me, I have to return back my report card to my class teacher soon 0_0. I am just really tired lately and all I want right now is something from mcdonalds, like the spicy fried chicken or something. Yeah, I guess that's it, there isn't a lot of things I could talk about today except that.......

PROUDDUCK.com

This is one of those times where I wish had Vivy Yusof's life....... Gosh, she sure is lucky :D

My tears dry on their own

After weeks of not blogging I have decided to do another entry today because my body seems to not want me to take a nap....... But tadi masa physics  tuition it was just begging me to slump dead on the table. SO....... anyways, my adik from MRSM balik today..... nothing much. Ooohhh!!!! I was watching Mobbed on Star World today and I cried because it  was super emotional :( Basically this woman wanted to organise this flash mob for her dad who was a firefighter and had saved so many lives. At the same time, she decided to incorporate a second flash mob in that flash mob for both of her parents as a memorial for her deceased sister so it got really emotional and I cried o_o. After that I had physics tuition so you can probably understand why I got really sleepy afterwards..... LOL. In other news, my trials are next week and sadly this will be my only trials so I only get one shot at making an impression for my forecasts. I've made little progress but hey, little progress is better then no progress at all right? Tonight I'll most probably be doing sejarah exercises and some add maths(something tells me I might probably just end up asleep instead of doing all of this). My kakyang told me during her SPM days, she use to be really good in her add maths but apparently she struggled in modern maths. She told me she once had ring worm and got 1 week off from school. So the entire week she did add maths and eventually mastered it e_______e.....Man, I wish I had some mysterious sickness that allows me to take an entire week of school, but that won't probably happen 0_0 especially at a time like this... today's been a very random day.....

beauty in the world

Heyyoh!!!!! Assalamualaikum friends, how's you?
So basically I decided to blog today was so I could avoid doing sejarah homework and biology revision.... I'm suppose to have this bio mock trials this Wednesday and I'm suppose to study and all but I don't really want to. It turns out, I still have a lot of things I don't know in bio so I'm scared as fuck right now but since I'm so lazy I resort to doing nothing. As of today, there are only 63 days left to SPM. yeah, sssssooooooo....... I've been looking at colleges and pre-university programs to keep myself motivated and focused but I can't really decide. My number 1 choice is obviously International Baccalaureate because in my opinion, is probably the best pre-u program out there but I'm still open to other options nonetheless. I've heard from friends that although IB is extremely tough, it was still fun and they learned a lot from it. The down side of it is that this IB is damn expensive. I've checked for scholarship opportunities but based on my progress with my SPM revision, I don't think I'll be able to get it...... It's just that after 5 years in a private school,  It would be a really heavy burden for my parents to shed more money for my education.
 Back to the main topic, other then IB I have considered several other pre-u programs like STPM, AUSMAT and  even foundations (in science of course). I know what your thinking, STPM isn't really an attractive program especially when you have to go through another year of high school basically and you'll probably experience the same kind of stress and exhaustion from SPM. The only difference between SPM and STPM is  the latter is difficult as fuck. You can't even pass that shit..... Otherwise it still has the same format and you can probably find a butt load of tuition centers and revision books all over Malaysia. I think STPM (contrary to general opinion) is very good and will get me recognised in the top local universities and will eventually Insyaallah bring me to overseas! Besides, there are tons of people who took STPM and did very well later on!
Yup, I think its a good time for me to stop blogging now. Gotta catch up on some studying! :)

68 days to SPM!

As the title suggests, yes there is only 68 days left to the big day (9 more Mondays by the way) . I am stressed in every way but yet I seem to not do anything about it because well, I'm just a lazy motherf*cker. My trials are coming up real soon (19th September) and I haven't made any good progress since the last time I blogged. Jeez, I feel lazy now.................................... I need some motivation to keep going. Today Aqilah asked me if I had the opportunity to do anything I want after I finish my studies what would it be. One of them was to marry a very rich athlete and design handbags for a living but that was just one of the over the top fantasies I had which will probably not happen. To be pretty honest, I never really had a serious thought but if I were to answer properly, it would be something like this; I would be a qualified olympic archer with mad skills but at the same time a gifted writer who became part of Hasty Pudding Theatricals at Harvard (LOL). By then I would have been an incredibly fluent sign language user  but also incredibly proficient in mandarin and french (more LOLs). I would be traveling all over the world and meet all different kinds of people!
I have more fun stuff I would like to do but its too long to list out so I'll probably tell more sometime later. But for now I'll stop and continue doing my carbon compound revision.....

Pimple rage!!!!

To anyone whose reading this, do you know any good cleansers or facial products I can use to get rid of some mean acne? My face is raging with all sorts of lumps and bumps I can't stand it!!!!!! AAAAAGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!! PIMPLE RAGE!!!!!!!!!