calling out for a hero

yay! SPM dah habis! Alhamdulillah I survived it!
 I'm not that thrilled as I thought I was. All my additional skills and talents I've somehow was able to develop has vanished out of thin air. I mean, I've lost my ability to read novels, I forgot how to sketch with oil pastels, I even forgot some of the sign language I've learned these past few months. This is what spm does to you. It makes you become tired, dry and dull.I was so excited for it to end but then when the time came I didn't really have the mood to celebrate :( I didn't feel like doing anything. I'm looking around for some jobs but to be  honest, I don't really want to do any work right now. My mum said if I'm going to have to keep up with my constant random impulse book buying I better get a job. I bought JK Rowling's new book today (The Casual Vacancy) and the book was like 70 ringgit! I've been trying to contact up Mr. Nicholas (my school counselor) if I could work for him at his consulting center at Kelana Jaya but apparently he hasn't replied to any of my messages yet. Maybe I should call him tomorrow...... I really would like to take some classes though but sadly it costs money and I'm short of that right now.  I don't have a lot in my mind right now so I'm just gonna end it here. I'll probably post something about my spm papers later........

Banana Shit!!!!

    So today was officially my last day in school actually learning things. This coming monday dah SPM and my insides are ready to blow up. Seriously, I don't know what to feel anymore, I am stressed, yet very calm about this whole thing. It's ironic that the last class I ever had for the year was add maths since this subject is probably my weakest amongst all. Is it a sign? I don't know 0_0 I decided to go on the internet again and browsed through ISKL's website and berangan-angan, wondering what would my life be like if I actually had the oppurtunity to go there after exams. But either way, wherever I end up, I'll still be happy irregardless because I know Allah SWT  has plans for all of us and there's always good to come of it.
   It's still very surreal to me that 5 years has just gone by like that. I admit that I regret doing some things (that I'm not exactly proud of) and not taking up on wonderful opportunities that had been practically thrown in front of me.
   So the last day of school were filled with hugs and tears (but not from 5 science 1 though, because we're all super macho awesome bitches). We took pictures and salam all the teachers asking for their blessings, the usual final day stuff. A friend of mine and I were talking, we both came to the realisation that after that final period, we would no longer be sitting in a small classroom of 25 (where everybody knows everybody) doing whatever we did for the past 11 years in there. By next year, we would all be drowning in a giant lecture hall (of course this doesn't apply for everyone) filled with probably 50-100 other people. Of course we would still have friends but it just won't feel the same anymore. Sigh, what to do? It is life after all and just like the rest, I have to learn to adapt to new things. I'm actually looking forward to that! :3